Updated: Oct 9, 2020
In a few days, it's my birthday, and I’m turning 20. Ever since can I remember, 20 has always felt so old to me. When one turns 20 they have already accomplished so much in their life; a real big girl home, with a real big girl career. I don’t have any of that. I still live with my parents during the times I am not in a dorm room with RA’s at school. I feel old, but not old enough to have real control over my life. My freedoms have, of course, grown over the years, but are not 100% where I thought they would be.
There used to be a time where I would lay in bed right before I fell asleep reading articles from Cosmopolitan and Teen Vogue titled, “Things I wish I knew before my Twenties”. I always skipped right over them because turning 20 was so far away. Welp, 20 is here and to be frank I don’t know how to handle it.
Here is a list of where I thought my life would be at 20 compared to where it actually is:
Going into my 20 still feels old, but my perspective about it has totally changed. I can’t live by what I think life is supposed to be like. I can only take it day by day, focus on the good instead of the bad, keep my head high, and all will be alright.